As the world turns

As the world turns ,my world falls!
i remain trapped between my mental walls
Trapped between my brain cells ,caved in like prisoners in jail cells
left captured within my own mind.
i'm dried out like long time wells... cuz...well it's been a long time coming.
i've been long time dealing ,long time waiting, hoping and praying that my world would never ever come crashing down...never ever ever come crashing down!
I'm barred from reaching out to you to do what we not so need to do because i want you and you want me too.
People and problems come between us like the priority from Arima to Toyota
but you are my bread and water
Crying my self to sleep my teardrops freeze like my heart beats soon you'll be gathering a podium ,reets and seats to say goodbye to it.
I'm no good for you?
I always thought that i was good enuf to live, good enough to give and good enough to love but 1ce again life must get in the way
so what must i do,conform to society or live life declared a victim of insanity?
I think i'd rather live insain because the truth of the matter is they'd still look down on me.
Wheteher i loved u or our love died their acceptance i'd always be denied no matter if i tried and tried.
I'd try and try an still be tied to these bars of lies.
U say to me They'd change their mind because they not always but usually do
Yu said i should make more of an effort but babe pour on me yur sympathy .
Awoman's heart has just been broken, a child's hope has just run dry and a girl's dream has just been taken away....So i need you by my side to say awwww kiss my forehead,nose and eyes with a big warm hug!
I only have you by my side.
So they hate me!, as strongly as the emotions the very word evokes
dealing me blows,right hook left hook pounding on my barely pounding heart.
For now i doubt we'd survive but i'd rather plead insanity than conform while i'm alive!
babe take me to flight school. up up and away lets make our own culture ,so they'd be happy without me but it won't matter because it will be our reality.
lets live out our dreams,lets ride or die!




yours truly
from Bonny to Clyde

Nightshade

You were there in the morning.
rejections,curses,too cliche but bittersweet was your attitude,you the man who never changes.
Most consistent but with changes,irony... must be because he never changes yet he changes.
As midnight winds awaken my pores i opt to secure your warmth your breath...your consistent affection but my loins burn for , satisfaction.
the notions of your shaft's sensation as its motions,motions for my content reaction
but you shot me down with a venomous shot of belladonna,
Belladonna gives me fever! i am burning
My heart rate increases,with frequent wheezes
as u inject me with belladonna...
I panic and wait for you to examine my state
but the night was more important than my shade
that midnight longing for security and comfort
My behavior provoked a sexual drought
You wouldn't touch me ,you rebuked my caresses
My gentle plea to be...to be... to be loved and felt and breathed and helped
all because of the first shot,my arrow fired to your heart with my dose for you
the belladonna.

an act returned as i make you numb with my shot of belladonna
the lies, deceit this extreme heat
of tension between us and also the fever
from the,venomous sting and bitter taste of yours and my belladonna.
i guess b4 u gave me the anesthetic u needed to give me the belladonna!
my pupils become dilated as i become infatuated by these changes caused by your dose of the belladonna.
calm my trembling nerves, my muscles all the ear aches ,toothaches head aches that it makes
this thing called love ...with 1 shot of belladonna
I wish to bathe ...in nightshade just to be healed by the belladonna.
take my mind to a higher plain with our joint fever, feed off my inner heat
cover no cover as we sin
satisfy that void within, fill the hole i was born with
read my mind see my intentions
i love the taste of belladonna.
our love is the belladonna.